out of sight, out of mind

today what i learned first and foremost is that being SORE truly SUCKS!  and that clearly my hiatus is coming back to bite me in the ass....literally.  as i'm sure you know or are probably guessing, i don't do things "a little"...i jump in with both feet.  and if i'm going to continue on the honesty track, i usually start off like gangbusters, and then fade off with a whimper...  i'm great at beginnings and awful at finishings.  so take note - this blog may just be another flash in the pan of all my enthusiastic starts :).....i hope not...as this "intention" thing may just be what i need to keep me going at a consistent pace.....slow and steady wins the race - it's my mantra for my quest AND for my race in march (which is a whole nother blog, at some point).

so, back to the sore thing.....i'm not "oh I'm a little sore from overexerting myself yesterday"....i'm "holy shit, it hurts to sit on the toilet" sore. nice job, deni - way to come out of the gate in a way to hammer home how incredibly out of shape i am ("for me").  because, who wouldn't after months of nice easy jogging, if anything, jump start the workout phase of my quest with PLYOMETRICS!!  no building up for me....i just jumped right back in like i hadn't stopped...NOT SMART.....and then today i did P90x.....cuz while i'm already sore, i may as well make it count, right?  all of this sore stuff is leading me to today's REAL issue, which is TIME.....obviously the last few days, i've not only made time to do write my blog, but also to actually workout.  2 things i have not "had time for" over the last 6 months...well never for the writing thing.   i also have made time each day to read, and go figure, today i WORKED too. so i guess the question is WHY?  why now?  why this stuff?  what does it take to motivate me after all this time to move forward with intention?  i mean, i'm not a new years resolution kind of girl - never have been....of course i'm not usually floundering so badly either, but this is definitely not the first time i've ever been faced with lack of motivation.  so what makes this different?

i think, like this picture i took while driving today (yes, driving) that sometimes the timing is "just right". all the elements come together to create something worthwhile and interesting.  that is what motivates me right now....putting together the pieces of what i am learning and encountering to create something that brings some sunshine - to me, and hopefully to you.  it will be very very interesting to me to see if i can keep it up.....because along with the normal work, workout, reading and writing i hope to do everyday, i'm also a political junkie!!  my very favorite show is MORNING JOE....some mornings that is really the only thing that gets me out of bed - because it ENDS at 9.....i'd like to say i'm ALWAYS a good mom and get up with my kids, so that we can bond before they go to school....but that would be a big fat lie - and i told you i'd be honest :)  i USED to get up every morning before school because i had to drive them to school or the bus stop - which is when i got addicted to Morning Joe, but that's not really the case anymore - hence the before mentioned i can't work out in the morning.....i like to start my day, with a cup of coffee and a "cup of joe"..... another funny tidbit about that....i have a twitter account basically so that i can stalk my 16 year old - not because i have ever or ever plan to tweet myself.....BUT i do follow 3 other people....Joe Scarborough, the Ellen Show (cuz who doesn't love ellen), and (are you ready??)  THE ROCK!!! ( holla ) it's a standing joke in my house regarding my undying love for all things ROCK....i even have that ridiculous "team bring it" t-shirt - again, because WHY NOT???  and ridiculously, these 3 people all motivate me in different ways....Joe to keep me thinking and engaged, ellen to appreciate the humor, and the rock to get me OFF MY ASS and do something already.  totally weird right!!!!!?

now that we've established i'm ridiculously crazy, and clearly am a sucker for big fat muscles and a smile, i'd like to share what i learned today.....i DO have time.  i have time to do anything and everything that interests me.  and while last year i didn't feel like i had time, it wasn't because i actually didn't, its because i didn't actually WANT to.  its funny how things keep coming at you when you are purposefully thinking, as opposed to just getting through......so hows this (JACKIE) for some reflection.  my very favorite thing i heard in marykay (yes, marykay) was this: we all have the same 24 hours in a day!  really?  it seems so simple and yet its not. we all look at other people and think "how does she do all that?", when what i think we really mean is "WHY does she do all that?".  to me the answer is BECAUSE SHE WANTS TO.  now whether she wants to for joy or money or guilt, who knows.....but we all make the time for the things we feel we should - and most of us for the things we want.  i know it doesn't matter that i am LATE to every single lunch, outing or appointment - i haven't yet been late to a softball game.....so obviously i CAN be on time - and i can MAKE time.   i just have to WANT TO enough....this is the year that i will try to confront the old adage - out of sight out of mind.....because if i can keep mindful of what i want to accomplish, then i can keep it all in sight.

 "BE THE CHANGE YOU WANT TO SEE IN THE WORLD" - gandhi

teaser for tomorrow....When did IOWA become the center of the political universe??