do you ever have those days when you just can't stop beating yourself up?? WHY do we do that to ourselves? i can consciously understand that there is ABSOLUTELY no point in it, yet i can't stop it......i got up, took josh to the bus, did my work, met a customer, ran an errand for luke at school, grocery shopped, cooked dinner, took my kids out for ice cream AND spent family time watching the Voice (our favorite).....and STILL i feel like a big giant SLUG.....mostly because i didn't work out AGAIN!!
how many things are we supposed to accomplish in a day? when is enough, enough?? i have decided that sometimes facebook is the root of all evil on these days.....when you are just not feeling QUITE good about yourself, and then you see a picture of an old workout buddy who looks PHENOMENAL....who clearly IS taking the time to workout....and then you start to feel like "what the hell is wrong with me??" i used to LOVE to workout....and made time for it.....what is REALLY holding me back now?? i still dont really know, but i'm determined to figure it out.
Everyting negative - pressure, challenges - is all an opportunity for me to rise. Kobe Bryant
that's how i feel - on most days i believe i can keep all the ball i have flying up in the air.....and then some days i get smashed on the head by most of them :)
then of course, during this funk ,you get a really nice note (also on facebook) from a high school friend - who can totally commisserate with you and you think maybe everything is okay after all.....what's with this up and down thing?? i'm usually a fairly stable person.....and i can sit here and go down the list of all the ways i'm lucky and fortunate.....and STILL i am so hard on myself - WHY am i not GETTING MORE DONE?? where did this pressure come from?
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