sometimes it just takes a change of scenery to change your outlook....absolutely nothing has changed in the big picture since my rant on thursday night....except that yesterday we left town - we are spending 2 short days in virginia beach for kris' birthday and so that i can torture myself with this half marathon....but just getting out of town for a minute is enough to make you "reset".....its just a breather in the run, run, run of our everyday lives.....its unfortunate that we cant take this time for "no reason"....because it would be MUCH more relaxing if the prospect of the run wasnt lingering....
altho, i have to say either way its been so nice.....i may not feel this way tomorrow, but today is good :) in the grand scheme of things, i think NEXT YEAR we will plan to run the 8k today so we can party on st patricks day...as opposed to NOT really indulging on st pattys day - doing it this way was the more challenging AND more mature way to go, but i have never claimed to be more mature....and i have enough challenges :) ok, i'm mostly kidding - but we were seriously talking about how we NEVER go away unless there is a reason....i travel for work or softball - or like this for a once in a while thing, but we never "go away" just to do it....its like we cant justify taking the time away without a good reason....when the good reason enough should be SANITY...
my next "resolution" is going to be AWAY time....even if it is scheduled around a run (which i hope is NOT the case), or a challenge....but really i'd like to just pick a weekend and do it....for no reason - because its necessary to me being a nice human being...a grown up TIME OUT...the world will not end - all my work will still be there - but maybe i will feel better about it after taking a moment...i'm hoping that's the case anyway....
tomorrow is kris' 40th birthday - harass him if you know him - and my first ever half marathon - big days in different ways....i know for lots of reasons i will try to spend my 13.1 miles being grateful for everything i have been given and for my ability to continue to meet these challenges.....so, here i am going to bed at 8pm on a saturday night, in hopes of doing right tomorrow in tribute to laura and kathy and tiff and aunt bobbie and all the other amazing women who have inspired me....wish me luck!!!
Life is a challenge, meet it.
-Mother Theresa
You have already made them, and us, proud. We love you!
ReplyDelete