okay so i'm not EXACTLY a hoarder, but i don't like to throw things out.....i have every school paper my kids ever did until at least the 5th grade....shoved in bins in my attic, that we will never look at again, but somehow i felt guilty if i threw them out - like i didn't value the work they were doing or something....ridiculous but true.....keeping that in mind, i have a billion t-shirts that have some kind of sentimental value (or maybe they just MIGHT fit again) all over the place....and so this is what happens - i do laundry, i throw it on my couch .... eventually i fold it and put it in piles - again, on my couch (if you actually come to my house and there is NOT laundry on my couch, you should feel very important because we picked up for you).....after the couch, it makes its way upstairs to various FLOORS, where it sits while we pick thru it until it goes BACK into the laundry....so basically everything that is in my drawers is rarely if ever worn! so i decided that i would actually go THRU my drawers so that i could put my clothes AWAY and start the cycle over from scratch.....my mother of course is HORRIFIED by this process, but there you go....
SO, in going thru all my clothes today, i realized that i have weird priorities and that i need to stop buying crap that is on sale just because its cheap and i MIGHT wear it one day.....because guess what.... i WON'T! lesson number one. lesson number two - i need to stop holding onto shorts that i bought for the HALF HOUR that i was that size ONCE.....i dont see my ass getting progressively smaller ever again....so its time to let those go! and lesson three....no matter how many articles of clothing i own, i wear the same maybe 10 outfits over and over again - everything else i have is just "occasion" wear....sad - because when i have an occasion, i probably will end up shopping anyway.....duh!! probably the funniest thing is that by the time i actually went thru the last drawer, i probably threw out some stuff i actually like and wear, but by that time i couldn't care less!! seriously, what is wrong with me that i have NO attention span whatsoever!! but obviously i have no problem staring at LAUNDRY until the end of time!!
My theory on housework is, if the item doesn't multiply, smell, catch fire, or block the refrigerator door, let it be. No one else cares. Why should you? ~Erma Bombeck
this is probably only made worse by the fact that i grew up in a house where NOT ONE THING was ever out of place and the only place you EVER saw laundry was for about 30 seconds after it came out of the dryer before it was put away - folded and probably ironed.....i think i wore the same shirt to high school once like 3 days in a row because it was always on top when i opened my drawer...and i'm absolutely not kidding.....how i ended up being the queen of the laundry pile is beyond me.... but there you go.....and my mom never ran a half marathon....so we just have different priorities.....and believe me, she definitely thinks mine are f'd up!! but there you go.....and my mom never ran a half marathon....so we just have different priorities.....and believe me, she definitely thinks mine are f'd up!!
of course the next step in this "going thru my clothes" process has me lamenting about the 17 different sizes i have all over the place.....now i'm the first to admit that i like my clothes to be big - i can't stand it when my pants are tight and all that, but clearly i'm as vain as the next person because i am holding on to some SMALL stuff that will NEVER fit this body again...and that's not a negative, its just the truth.....at one point in my life, my JOB was to work out....i worked at a gym....i was fit with a capital F - and consequently a couple sizes smaller....i dont see those days coming back any time soon .... and guess what, IF they do, i'm gonna celebrate by BUYING NEW CLOTHES!! right?? so anyhow, i threw out a bunch of stuff today and made myself feel like a giant fat ass in the process.....and after all my glory from running yesterday, too.....
which led me to my next "LIST"....it deserves all caps because this is the list of my activities i'm signing up for this year.....i guess i'm still riding the high from the run, but compounded with the "holy shit, i'm NEVER fitting into those shorts again" realization of the day, i figured i may as well get a plan together to keep me motivated.....and if any of you are interested in any or all of these things, let me know - i do plan to put together a "non" runners club - for those of us who feel compelled to run, but will never break a 10 min mile - or a 12 min mile for that matter - i'm calling it an experiment in non-intimidating motivational fitness....we will see how it goes, but like anything in life, it helps to have goals AND a support system.....so here we go :
april 15 - 1st annual LP Lax 5k
may 5-6 - avon breast cancer walk
may 12 - great urban race
may 20 - warrior dash
june-aug SOFTBALL - the steel lillies 5k will be in here somewhere
sept 9 - tough mudder (and yes, i bagged on this last year.....dammit, i still feel like i need to do it....any takers??)
oct 13 - baltimore marathon -TEAM relay
nov 17 - turkey trot 10k
dec 1 - annapolis half marathon (this one im not so super sure of yet.....i dont know if i need to run ANOTHER half this year, but i'm leaving my options open)
as you can see, i've decided that by the time im 41, i will no longer feel like a giant fat ass - its just a year later than i had originally decided :) and its not totally about the fat ass thing, as you know - but if keeping myself moving helps with that cause, i'm all for it!! its funny because my mom was flabbergasted that my half marathon was not a fundraiser.....like there was no apparent reason to her for me to do something so ridiculous if it wasnt for a good cause....and i've decided that the "good" cause all this running is going towards is the NO GIANT FAT ASS cause!! hows that? i'm kidding....mostly, but i'm allowed to have a selfish motivation for some of this, right? i feel like i'm going to continue to do my part for the greater good, and i'm all about a good fundraiser....but sometimes we have to do things because they make US feel better - and sometimes we just have to do them to prove a point.....
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